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My introduction to Motherhood (PNA PTS trigger)

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We’re approaching February, which is 2 years since my son was conceived.

We were trying to conceive, and were very fortunate to ”catch” very quickly.  Alfie was planned long before we started trying, and as I work in the baby product industry, I’d spent years making lists and deciding ”What I would do”.

I knew prior to conceiving that I wanted a natural home birth.  No drugs, hands off and let me get on with it.  I am a natural warrior woman and am made to birth, after all.  I spent my pregnancy reading books only related to natural

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birth, I practiced hypnobirthing religiously.  I watched countless video’s on breastfeeding, attended all the classes and read as many books as I could get my hands on.

The thing is, baby hadn’t read all the books.  He hadn’t watched the videos, and mother nature is quite frankly bit of a bitch.

So, how did birth go?

I’m going to bullet point this, as it really is quite long:

Week 40 (39+7) – Baby measures small, and I’m sent for a growth scan.  I walk out of appointment convinced he is simply engaged more than the midwife thinks.

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40+3 – Growth scan done, and it finds my placenta is working far too hard, and baby has indeed stopped growing.  Induction is strongly recommended, finishing the appointment with the sweep that I definitely said I wouldn’t have!
40+3 – We are in the next day for induction, pessary inserted at 4.30, and I’m mostly left to it but with regular monitoring of baby.  Hubby goes home for one last night of sleep around 11pm.
Slight niggles through night, but can sleep through them.  I’m monitored regularly, however babies heart rate begins to
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drop.  I agree to constant monitoring.
Come morning, and third episode of babies heart rate dropping, a Doctor is brought into me to look at the doctory stuff (the print outs from the machine!)
A whole team of people are brought in to meet me later that morning – Doctors, anesthetist etc.  Apparently they’re just ”doing the rounds” but I already had a feeling I wasn’t progressing well.
Just to add – throughout all this I’m moving as much as possible, on the ball, practicing hypnobirthing and walking!  The midwives caring for me gave me
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wireless monitors.
I’m not supposed to go to labour ward until 24 hours after the pessary, however due to babies heart rate continuing to drop, and me only being 1cm dilated, I’m taken down to the labour ward.
The incredible midwives read my birth plan, and proceed to set up my music, dim the lights, begin talking in low voices and put my battery candles out (fair play to them, I’d forgotten all about that stuff!)
Pessary is removed early at 2.30 ish.  I request for them to leave me to see if I can progress on my own as I don’t want my
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waters broken artificially.
I’m left to progress (obviously still monitored)
3 hours pass and I’m examined, I’ve progressed to 3cm.  The advanced midwifery practitioner (AMP) comes in and we discuss breaking my waters, which I agree to.
Waters broken an hour or so later, and I sob my heart out – accepting that I am not going to do this under my own steam.
Not long after waters are broken, babies heart rate plummets, and doesn’t recover.
Probe thingy put on his head, and no heart rate detected.  It is now 6pm.
I’m advised that a
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section is required, by which point I’m agreeing to it before the AMP has even finished talking and they’re wheeling me out.
It only occurs to me while in theatre that I’m not going to see baby being born, I am being put under.
All the while, I am religiously using hypnobirthing, supported by the amazing hypnobirth trained midwives.  I’m totally calm knowing my cortisol levels rocketing could seriously affect baby.
6.16pm, my little boy was born – I was not aware (this still deeply bothers me).  He was 6lb 6 oz and thankfully didn’t
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require any resuscitation and was absolutely fine.

The rest is a blur, but I think I met him around half an hour later.  We’re taken to the ward, and around 2am, put in our own room.  The details are very hazy and I am absolutely off my box on morphine and ibuprofen (the stuff up the bum is SO strong!)

We begin breastfeeding, which is a whole other shit show – that’s in part 2!

So in summary, yes go for the natural birth and believe in yourself!  Whether you have the golden ”natural birth”, accept drugs, birth upside down in a tree

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(technically impossible, but whatevs), or have an abdominal birth, we all put ourselves to one side to get our babies here safely, and for that, we’re all incredible warrior women.

 

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- 28 Jan 19

We’re approaching February, which is 2 years since my son was conceived.

We were trying to conceive, and were very fortunate to “catch” very quickly.  Alfie was planned long before we started trying, and as I work in the baby product industry, I’d spent years making lists and deciding “What I would do”.

I knew prior to conceiving that I wanted a natural home birth.  No drugs, hands off and let me get on with it.  I am a natural warrior woman and am made to birth, after all.  I spent my pregnancy reading books only related to natural birth, I practiced hypnobirthing religiously.  I watched countless video’s on breastfeeding, attended all the classes and read as many books as I could get my hands on.

The thing is, baby hadn’t read all the books.  He hadn’t watched the videos, and mother nature is quite frankly bit of a bitch.

So, how did birth go?

I’m going to bullet point this, as it really is quite long:

  • Week 40 (39+7) – Baby measures small, and I’m sent for a growth scan.  I walk out of appointment convinced he is simply engaged more than the midwife thinks.
  • 40+3 – Growth scan done, and it finds my placenta is working far too hard, and baby has indeed stopped growing.  Induction is strongly recommended, finishing the appointment with the sweep that I definitely said I wouldn’t have!
  • 40+3 – We are in the next day for induction, pessary inserted at 4.30, and I’m mostly left to it but with regular monitoring of baby.  Hubby goes home for one last night of sleep around 11pm.
  • Slight niggles through night, but can sleep through them.  I’m monitored regularly, however babies heart rate begins to drop.  I agree to constant monitoring.
  • Come morning, and third episode of babies heart rate dropping, a Doctor is brought into me to look at the doctory stuff (the print outs from the machine!)
  • A whole team of people are brought in to meet me later that morning – Doctors, anesthetist etc.  Apparently they’re just “doing the rounds” but I already had a feeling I wasn’t progressing well.
  • Just to add – throughout all this I’m moving as much as possible, on the ball, practicing hypnobirthing and walking!  The midwives caring for me gave me wireless monitors.
  • I’m not supposed to go to labour ward until 24 hours after the pessary, however due to babies heart rate continuing to drop, and me only being 1cm dilated, I’m taken down to the labour ward.
  • The incredible midwives read my birth plan, and proceed to set up my music, dim the lights, begin talking in low voices and put my battery candles out (fair play to them, I’d forgotten all about that stuff!)
  • Pessary is removed early at 2.30 ish.  I request for them to leave me to see if I can progress on my own as I don’t want my waters broken artificially.
  • I’m left to progress (obviously still monitored)
  • 3 hours pass and I’m examined, I’ve progressed to 3cm.  The advanced midwifery practitioner (AMP) comes in and we discuss breaking my waters, which I agree to.
  • Waters broken an hour or so later, and I sob my heart out – accepting that I am not going to do this under my own steam.
  • Not long after waters are broken, babies heart rate plummets, and doesn’t recover.
  • Probe thingy put on his head, and no heart rate detected.  It is now 6pm.
  • I’m advised that a section is required, by which point I’m agreeing to it before the AMP has even finished talking and they’re wheeling me out.
  • It only occurs to me while in theatre that I’m not going to see baby being born, I am being put under.
  • All the while, I am religiously using hypnobirthing, supported by the amazing hypnobirth trained midwives.  I’m totally calm knowing my cortisol levels rocketing could seriously affect baby.
  • 6.16pm, my little boy was born – I was not aware (this still deeply bothers me).  He was 6lb 6 oz and thankfully didn’t require any resuscitation and was absolutely fine.

The rest is a blur, but I think I met him around half an hour later.  We’re taken to the ward, and around 2am, put in our own room.  The details are very hazy and I am absolutely off my box on morphine and ibuprofen (the stuff up the bum is SO strong!)

We begin breastfeeding, which is a whole other shit show – that’s in part 2!

So in summary, yes go for the natural birth and believe in yourself!  Whether you have the golden “natural birth”, accept drugs, birth upside down in a tree (technically impossible, but whatevs), or have an abdominal birth, we all put ourselves to one side to get our babies here safely, and for that, we’re all incredible warrior women.

 

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