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To The Moon And Stars

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I wanted to write to you to tell you how loved you are and how proud I am of you but each time I try, I wonder whether my words are enough. The other day, out of curiosity and anticipation of the funny answer you might provide, I asked you if you knew what love is. You said it was ’something to do with the heart’ (your brother argued that actually it was something to do with the park but that’s another story!). You were right of course. It is. Love is everything wonderful and happy; it’s warm and it’s tender and it’s as fierce as it is gentle.
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But it goes beyond all this, to somewhere unknown, to an all encompassing, unfathomable place. For me, it creeps into my pores, it sneaks up on me and makes me catch my breath. It is the flip of my heart when I see the school is calling me for some reason. It’s the protectiveness I feel when someone says you’re quiet (you’ve an inner confidence that I’m so proud of). It’s in the second before I hear the sound of your breath when I check on you in the night. It’s the panic when I lose sight of you for a few seconds. It’s woven into the trust I
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have to place in others when I hand you over to the school each day. It’s in my most terrifying and scariest thoughts. It’s in the giggles and in the tears. It’s there when I’m asleep and when I’m awake, when my mind is on other things and when it’s solely on you. It’s out of my control now. It’s in the silence, it’s in the guilt, it’s in the calm and it’s in the storm. It’s the happy and it’s the sad, it’s the hurt and the fear. It’s what life is now.

Everyday, I stand on the edge looking down, knowing this life is as fragile as a

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whisper. And I fall for you over and over. You were the one that tore my heart wide open, that made me both stronger than I knew I could be but also more vulnerable. Love is all of this. It was and it always is. A trillion times over and over. But I don’t say any of this to you. I will simply summarise with ’I love you’.

http://www.ricecakesandraisins.co.uk

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- 13 Mar 19

I wanted to write to you to tell you how loved you are and how proud I am of you but each time I try, I wonder whether my words are enough. The other day, out of curiosity and anticipation of the funny answer you might provide, I asked you if you knew what love is. You said it was ‘something to do with the heart’ (your brother argued that actually it was something to do with the park but that’s another story!). You were right of course. It is. Love is everything wonderful and happy; it’s warm and it’s tender and it’s as fierce as it is gentle. But it goes beyond all this, to somewhere unknown, to an all encompassing, unfathomable place. For me, it creeps into my pores, it sneaks up on me and makes me catch my breath. It is the flip of my heart when I see the school is calling me for some reason. It’s the protectiveness I feel when someone says you’re quiet (you’ve an inner confidence that I’m so proud of). It’s in the second before I hear the sound of your breath when I check on you in the night. It’s the panic when I lose sight of you for a few seconds. It’s woven into the trust I have to place in others when I hand you over to the school each day. It’s in my most terrifying and scariest thoughts. It’s in the giggles and in the tears. It’s there when I’m asleep and when I’m awake, when my mind is on other things and when it’s solely on you. It’s out of my control now. It’s in the silence, it’s in the guilt, it’s in the calm and it’s in the storm. It’s the happy and it’s the sad, it’s the hurt and the fear. It’s what life is now.

Everyday, I stand on the edge looking down, knowing this life is as fragile as a whisper. And I fall for you over and over. You were the one that tore my heart wide open, that made me both stronger than I knew I could be but also more vulnerable. Love is all of this. It was and it always is. A trillion times over and over. But I don’t say any of this to you. I will simply summarise with ‘I love you’.

http://www.ricecakesandraisins.co.uk

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Rice Cakes and Raisins is a humorous yet honest parenting blog with the aim of encouraging parents everywhere to cut themselves some slack!

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